Lost for Words?...The Secret!

Pate asked me the other day, “Sara, have you updated your blog lately?”

“No.” I replied, “I’m lost for words right now.”

Why? I guess because all I could think about was the bad things that have been going on. My ankle took more then a month to heal before I could do any sort of intensity. I didn’t feel ready for Nationals. This year was nothing like I’d hoped it would be. I found out my boyfriend has Mono. This all put me a mental whirlwind, and I didn’t know how to handle it.

But it all seemed to come down to one quote, “There is NOTHING the body suffers, that the soul may not profit by.”

The way I see it, is I’m getting all the bad stuff out of the way now, making it all the more easier in the future. Looking at next year, I feel like I have a better understanding of knowing what I want, and how to achieve it better.

I watched the movie The Secret last night. Some of the points mentioned seemed to somehow click in my mind and make a lot of sense. For example, if you focus on what you don’t want, in the end that is what you will get. By focusing on what you do want, there is a better chance of that dream actually coming true. Even if you have no idea how that will happen, by always having it on your mind it will eventually find its way there.

I have two final races left to this season. My goal is to go out there and give it my all, knowing in my mind what I am shooting for, and as every day goes by I am one step closer to my dream turning into reality.

Get the Hint?

Sorry, it’s been a while since my last update. Where should I start…? First of all I have to say this season has been a little less then ideal. Truth is, my performance so far has been worse then the previous season.

I guess I had high hopes this season after having such an awesome training block throughout the summer and fall. I felt great and the new atmosphere in Thunder Bay was just what I needed. Needless to say, I got off to a bit of a rough start to the race season. I was sick in Silver Star, and did not bounce back as quickly as I hoped. I struggled in my races before Christmas in Canmore and Quebec, and just couldn’t get that fast, aggressive race sensation into my mind and body.

Over Christmas I decided it was time to recover, refocus and do everything I could to get my body ready for Trials in Duntroon. Everything seemed to go smoothly. I started to get that feeling back and kept my mind positive. Arriving in Duntroon I knew there was nothing more I could do, other then race the best I could. Unfortunately my results did not show any improvement. I was not where I needed to be in order to qualify for World Juniors, which meant I had to decide what I was going to do for the remainder of the year.

My body seemed to take quite a hit at trials. I was exhausted and in bed for the following week. I decided I would come home to Calgary and recover for a couple weeks before heading back to Thunder Bay to spend the rest of the season preparing to race fast at Nationals.

Sometimes its seems like when the world is trying to tell you something, it is really trying to tell you something. Yesterday I went out for an easy ski, I was ripping down a hill fairly fast on a narrow trail. There was a corner coming up and I told myself not to hit the tree on the bank of the corner. Lo and behold I went straight toward it and crashed into it with full force. My ankle got twisted and rolled onto its side, resulting in a pretty bad sprain. I managed to double pole back to the lodge, but I am now walking around on crutches at least for a few days.

Ok, I get the hint. Maybe this means I need to chill. Take things slow and make sure I don’t rush. Obviously I’m not going to get fast overnight, and it will take time.

It can be frustrating, but all skiers seem to go through times in their career where things seem like they just keep going downhill. But in the end getting through the rough times is what makes them strong enough to make it to the top. So I am going to keep my head up, and take whatever is thrown at me as another challenge I have to overcome. And I know at some point things will turn around and I will be able to reach those goals that I have aspired to for so long.